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| User: | marryah_noche (7009637) The Chaos Of Silence
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| Name: | Marryah ''M Noch'' Noche(Marie-Lise Vachon) | |||||
| Website: | My Msn Space | |||||
| Location: | Granby, Canada | |||||
| Birthdate: | 1989-06-28 | |||||
| E-mail: | marryahnoch@hotmail.com | |||||
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| Bio: | Hello.I found it a good decision to give you a hint of who I am before you look further into my entries.If this is offending to you,then get more of a decent life and gently forget about what you'll see written on here. My Name Is: Marie-Lise Vachon.People who are understanding enough to get in my closer circle of friends call me M Noch.I've been in a group of vampires and vampiresses and been carved Marryah ''M Noch'' Noche.Further definition: I am a Quebecer French.Noche is Spanish and Italian.''Aime La Nuit'' ''Marria La Nuit''.''Loves The Night'',''Marries The Night''.It's suit to my violent,pityless and blood drinking habits.So call me M Noch if you respect the numerous scars of my past. In The Morning I Am: Usually shut off to any kind of communication.Lately,to put it precisely.I have health problems due to too much smoking and drug taking.I'm not yet aware of what exactly is the disease I got,but I stopped my usual activities for now 4 months or so.So I'm usually stoned-looking,a dead corpse walking around.It happens to scare people off but if you know enough about me,you'll know I'm done attacking people.I'm open-minded and I can take mostly everything in though I'm sick and I happen to bring people down in a single glance.I suggest you just move on if I get you somewhere deep inside your darkness that you can't shoulder for the now. Love Is: An Ode For Cruelty,to quote H.I.M.'s (His Infernal Majesty http://www.heartagram.com) ''Funeral Of Hearts''.I have been through quite too many relationships.I'm bisexual and more into girls,and that's something people have problems with.Well,you got to know love is something innocent and as consuming as fire and that wether the person is the same or opposite sex,the curse is no different.I've been abusing most people I couldn't help but love away.I've been physically hurting most of my girlfriends and writing menaces in their own blood.It's been nearly a year I didn't accept to love again.Love kills me.It's like a pill that makes you badtrip if you widen your heart to allow it to fill up too easily.It's stronger than thinking,it's a feeling far beyond any.It makes you turn into a beast,you know it's gonna hurt you in the end.I've been taking it by hurting love itself and that something the Devil agreed with.Since the person had naturally turned to me looking for warmth,they've got the soothing shit and before they knew they had my pointed teeth up their necks and they had my own sufferance buried deep inside their souls.I've almost killed one of those people who dared trying to get me aware I got a heart like any other human.I doubt I'll ever want to love again. I Dream About: Life after death.Strenght,pure strenght of light or darkness.I can't wait to get rid of feelings for good,to get rid of the enveloppe.To get rid of cliches and hurting.To get rid of the test you don't have a choice to take.I still can't believe some people manage to call it a living.I believe more in the invisible than the materialized. ( About The Gender I'm Into. ) I notice first: The eyes.The scent.The softness of the skin.Then the usual junk...boobs and butt. Last Slow Dance: I refuse to describe those.It's pure creep. (Who) Do I have a crush on presently: There's a guy in my study class who looked up to me someday I came in with crystal tears freezing down my cheeks.He started talking to me about the way I looked and the way he feels me more than I could ever think.He started saying I had to believe in God,I had to believe in Angels and the stuff that could beat Evil out.He can't stop taking crucifix out and asking me to close my eyes,touch and pray.It's something I haven't done for years.Those people don't give me a choice to consider.To consider wether how much I want it deep inside,I'll never be alone with stuff I love for my own badness.There's always people caring about tearing me out of that endless sorrow.They make me believe in forgiveness.Though I rarely admit it,deep inside I want to breathe in those kisses of concern.I want to love you Guyly.Thanks for being there though you have hatred sending shivers down your veiled fragile skin.Coming from the Monster I didn't yet kill. Can you talk to the most easily: My brother.My big brother.He's 25.I haven't really been real close to him when I was little.He was going through a bit less of the darkness I got here though he loved the cold and the solitude and he couldn't face the Sun without burning his whole.I tell him everything and he always understands and he's one of those particular people I happen to hug.He lives in Sherby and sometimes I go up there to spend whole weeks or weekends.He helped me through my phases of deep possession and he had warned me not to get exorcised so my whole being was sheltered from being totally shattered away.I'll never thank him enough for accepting what's deep down and protecting me in spite of what I am.I love you JF. (HAVE I EVER) Fallen for my best friend: Nick.Nicholas though we call him Dylan around here.He used to be this guy full of ambition and dreams and all,this guy full of wisdom you could always hold unto.But now he's a junkie,I've been pushing him further into it.And now he's gone.He's not buried in his grave but I've been seeing him almost dozing off in my arms watching him slowly die under my pressure.He thinks his health is good but I watch him fade to nothingess,his cells are burnt up and it's partly my fault.I have been in love with him since October.And yet I've been hurting him too.I sent him a long ass email before I went off to rehab.And now he's avoiding me and he hates me for what I turned him into.Though he still pretends he cares and I now force him not to. (WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON) I talked to on the phone: My mother.I called her this morning so she could get me a doctor.I'll go see that doctor tomorrow and I'll have the X-Rays taken so I'll finally know what's up with me.I don't expect anything reassuring.My parents still don't want to let me rest but she motivates most my abscences because I can't handle to go to school when I have the feeling I could die on that ground.I don't wanna die in that place.I don't want to take anymore of that nothingness when I can't just crawl in bed when I feel like my body can't drag me no more.That's when I come to feel that I got a mother,as messed up she might be.I got a mother and she cares.I need two parents. Hugged: I didn't do that in a while. Instant Messaged: A Greek guy I met off the HIM chatroom.He's absolutely hot,he's obsessed with Genne Simmons (KISS) and has the wonderfulest tongue in the world.Love you,megavag. *winks* Laughed With: I couldn't manage that in the last month. Could you live without a computer?: Absolutely not.I got my pictures and my sacred music repertory in here.A computer makes my life more complete...that's something common. What's your favourite food?: (Cunts in Blood) Chinese. What's your favourite fruit?: Broken hearts. What hurts the most,physical or emotionnal pain?: For the now I should say my emotions took over my body.It's probably the best question to ask someone. Do you trust others way too easily?: It was my Main problem for a hell of a while.Christ,it really was.But I've been learning from the talk shit and the cliches and misjudging that flown out of it...I could have done this alone without people trying to stick some shit out of me and me confiding in like I'm anyone and like people can accept difference that easily.People,live your life by yourselves.That might sound real ironic said from here but you know people can't go through your head with just a ticket. (THE THINGS) I know: That I'm not human.When you say you've seen me in visions/dreams/nightmares and that you get odd thrusts of pain when you look me in the eye or touch me or just talk to me with randomness tryouts,you're not totally screwed.That's why I keep away from most people lately.It's so easy for me to erl all I got inside over innocent and loving people that I become something else when I get into too deep a contact.When I love it's worse.So I'm a solitary woman from now on...I don't want to destroy beautiful and fragile things so I keep them away. I want: To find peace into myself again.I want to rest (not to die) to rest.That's why I drink a lot,considering I can't smoke anymore. I have: Nothing to lean on most of the time.Nothing with breath. I wish: I could find a place where forgiveness would be forced down on me and where I could breathe the same air as anyone...and look up and just smile.I wish reality could break down,basically. I hate: Obligations.Laws.Society.All the bullshits putting pressure. I miss: Drugs.More than what the fuck you guys can imagine. I fear: Plastic people. I hear: Slaves going to work. I search: For the truth. I love: Darkness,sex,death metal,alcohol I ache: Everywhere right now but its more about my back and my upper chest.My lungs. I care: About the people who are honest with me and with themselves.I care about those who dare accept differences.I accept their shit back. I always: Depress.Basically. I dance: When I get paid.Only.I'm sorry kiddies. I cry: Every morning I do not always: Push people off when they try to look in my face,as insanely aggravating as it is. I write: A lot of songs.I might eventually publish some on here,though I can't figure out wether I'm safe with it.My lyrics are pretty different and I've put most of myself into this overflowing ink and I'll personally kill the person who takes the pleasure to steal it all away. I confuse: A lot of stupid fucks.I confuse most people who insist to keep to this ''normality'' stack of shit.People who just walk about dressed in uniforms doing their shitty routine and being controlled by religion and fear,mostly...well they don't get me.Someday they'll find out they aren't okay with this kind of lifetime. I can usually be found: In my basement lately.I'm pretty sick so I don't tend to walk out too much.I just stay here and listen to some full blast shit.Music heals most wounds. I need: An access to sleep.I can't just lie down close my eyes and let my breath soothe me.I'm never alone,the sounds of nothingness are wayy too buzzing.I keep seeing the dead and it actually bothers the shit out of me.Not because I'm actually afraid of what I see but it's more about the emotions those beings can make you go through.They have a strenght us humans don't have yet unless we get rid of fear.They desperately try to transfer that message to us and it's so penetrating that you can't just ignore it once you've opened up.I've been playing around doing a lot of chakra rituals and that's one of the results. Have I played a game that required removal of clothing: I don't play games.I simply fucking undress.Card games purposes are for shy people basically...to me and most my mates,it's actually boring as fuck. Favorite place to be kissed: Cunt.With tongue. Have you ever been caught ''doing something'': If you aren't a stupid bastard,you'll figure something out eventually. Druggie?: Yeah.Totally.I keep buying shits though I know I can't smoke it.I can't make it up front my mind that I'm sick and I can't allow myself anymore.I just can't face that reality so I hold unto the stuff that's in my pockets though I can rarely take some of the shit. Gang member: Since last summer,actually.But I've been letting those people down.I'm actually talking about the delinquent ones,but I still got a lot of vamps as friends though they're still junkies and I'm the only one ''getting out of it''.I can't tell it's gonna remain that way. Daydreamer: I should say daysleeper.Wether I sleep at school or I just take a raincheck and I stay home pushing everyone away and sleeping like nothing in the world matters. Alcoholic: Absolutely.That can't change.I'm telling you. Freak: Probably not the definition you got. Brat: No.I mean I know what the fuck I stand for.I know what I want.And when I'm lost I don't cling to people. Sarcastic: When I'm in a very fucking bad mood. Goody-Goody: Darling. Angel: I probably sound like I'm soft,sensual and full of wisdom..understanding...romantic...but I'm really damn demonic.That's part of a vampire's tactics. Devil: Bravo. Friend: I could be the best friend you ever got.I mean I can be loyal and I can listen to people,I'm very open-minded.But from the moment you'll hurt me,you know what to expect.I don't forgive. Shy: Never.I might be silent,mysterious and all that but it's nothing about shyness. Talkative: When what you say actually interests me. Adventurous: When I'm in the shape.I usually am quite a Jackass. Intelligent: Yes. Your Best Feature(personnality): I can listen.Not obey,but I mean deeply listen to what someone's got to say. Your Biggest Flaw: I'm violent and sadic. Most Annoying Thing You Do: I bite.If you call that annoying rather than enjoyable then just don't show up in my meetings. Biggest mistake you've done this far: I have no idea.How can you exactly tell what goes to the Mistakes column? Describe your personnality in one word: Deep The physical feature for which you are most complimented: Everything.Say it,you just love me. :p Person you regret sleeping with: Looking into the archives represents dirty work. A smell that makes you smile: Cunt,obviously. A city you'd like to visit: Los Angeles.But I suppose I've been wanting to go to West Chester for a while.I'm not a VLB stalker though I absolutely like what they do. A drink your order most often: It used to be Sam Bucca but I'm keeping it to Beer or Ice lately. A delicious dessert: Cheesecake.I don't know why,but I always order that shit. A book you highly recommend: I never really read.If you want something good,go to Adultfanfiction.net.There are a lot of celebrity fanfictions,some made me totally laugh my ass off.http://adultfan.nexcess.net/aff/ Have fun and donate if you want to keep this marvelous boat floating.I must tell you as well about the Must Be Pop community,fake celebrity LiveJournals.It is a GAME and not actually played for mean purposes,I invite you to read the disclaimer over each celebrity profile.You could call those fanfictions though they're PoV.It's highly popular.Here are the lists of celebrities included in there,in alphabetical order: http://mustbepop.darkcafedays.com/list.html Some journals are friends only.Get an account and add those celebrities to your friends list,it IS worth. The music you prefer while alone: I always prefer death metal over anything.Or gothic music. Your favourite band: Slayer A film you could watch over and over: Sin City QuitMeter Counter courtesy of www.quitmeter.com. 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